Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again
Ooh, ooh
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me,
yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he Would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listed outside her door
And I’d hear her, mama cryin’ for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m prayin’ for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don’t do it usually
But Lord, she’s dyin’ to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream.
第一次听到这首歌的时候,我很没用的,流下眼泪。就算再听很多次,我依然会因为它的歌词而感动。爸爸给人的感觉,原来是那么的慈祥。可是,这份感觉,我遗忘了。去年因为婆婆去世,我终于见到一个很陌生的人,他瘦了,没有以前的那个大肚腩,牙齿也掉了好几颗。是因为生活不顺利吗?我没问。他一直和我说话,可是我却只答没问,没有关心过什么,开不了口,也不知道应该怎么开口。当他夹菜给我的时候,我却不知所措,心虚的夹回菜给他。心里却很不习惯那么心虚,觉得很不安。我还看到他的老婆,她很友善的一直和我们微笑,我也浅浅的回她一个笑容。可是我们并没有任何对话。我想大家明白就好。不知不觉,10年了,和他的陌生关系维持了10年。那段时间有想过离家出走,因为我很累。父母的不合,做子女的最累,最无辜。才13岁的我,就被他们通知要上法庭选择要跟谁。那个时候的我,除了害怕,还是害怕。不想选择。我想,就算直到现在,他们都不知道我曾经是如此的害怕吧~我从来就没有告诉过他们。每一次都会想到那个时候的自己,那个时候的无助。然后心情就会变得很平静。因为这样,才有现在的我。注:他 - 我爸爸她 - 我爸爸的老婆